Resolved my issues, and I apologize for my ignorance.

DID YOU HEAR? DUMBO MIGHT STILL BE NORMAL!!

I apologize for my behavior recently, I know you're probably thinking "that isn't dumbo! :cry:", and such, and it's led to many actions such as the removal of my administration, and I think I've come to a conclusion on resolving my stupid drama towards BB.

It doesn't involve anything of what I've mentioned, in fact, that's what I thought was the problem with this community, and that I hated it, but rather it was entirely different, an itch in my brain caused me to think as to why I was having this abnormal behavior of mine, coming from me, this is abnormal and rather ignorant of me.

And to give myself a satisfactory, I am a bit more optimistic about BB, but that's where resolving my issues come into play, I basically had a false sense of BB failing, for no reason at all, I constantly had raged about the movement code which is fixed now, and felt the updates were too slow, thus building up a pressure of should I had left, and thus caused me to rage at everyone, thinking ignorantly that BB was over, but looking over chat logs with Teddi and I having an argument, I think it was just that ( me having false sense in BB declining ).

But being more optimistic ( like prior, but I had seem to forgotten all that ), it seems it's not bad at all, and I would like to continue to where we last started, of course it might take some healing, and you might not trust me enough, but I do believe I have hit the nail on the head, all because what I believed, which is was totally wrong, and I sincerely apologize.

I do believe I took upon an influence in what others have said, might have been Advantage, I don't know, but I honestly at one point had taken influence of anothers words of it declining ( this person happens to be at better understanding of BB than I do ), and while other admins have influenced me to do some of the things I regret doing ( teleporting too frequently, I even noticed this X.X ).

I guess when you feel like a community is declining, you tend to not give a damn anymore, thus I went on a flaming spree, insulting everyone. Before it wasn't like that, I was a decent member of BB, and I would like to continue to be one, but I need to not fall into this hole again.

It's not that I wanted to take a break from Administration either, in fact, I never had to, just I felt like I was being a bad admin and wanted to take a break, but because that I felt BB was turning into a shit hole, I figured it didn't matter ether i teleport to the runners area constantly and basically abusing my administration abilities, but I am still dedicated to my standard, and thus I got mixed up and confused.

Certain chat logs can confirm I've been insulting Teddi, and Cpfair, but for the wrong reasons, as said above about my issues. There also had been a case of me bragging of being pro, bhop, almighty, w/e etc, and I really do think I am I'm very good on the server, no lies, you know it. xP But I know it will generally annoy people without them saying a word, so I knew I shouldn't have said it.

I would look like an idiot, and be generally annoying when doing this, and really, everyone just wants to have fun and games, not to see who's more proer, in general. Of course we joke about it, I would usually joke too, but lately I've been more serious about it, which is stupid of me.

Before all this, I'd tend to ignore anything that generally annoyed me, but since my issues got in the way, it pressured me enough to say such things.

As for the Rice community, that could have been an influence, yes, but since I repent my wrong-doings, I'm going with a balance in both worlds.

P.S. I'm sorry Teddi, and Clive for wasting your time on my foolishness :3; And any false information I gave to people in steam chat.

Please don't see this as me whining some more, or some dramatic period I'm going through in generally jokingly related to be woman. ( :v ) But I made this thread to clear everything up! Primarily Teddi will find this to his importance.

It might sound stupid that I'm telling you this even when it's my own problem, but believe it, that's what ignorance does to someone. :cry: